I’ve blogged a bit about this before. But it bears repeating. There is SO much information out there about running injuries and how you get them, how they suck, how you treat them, how you return to running after them, blah, blah, blah.
But there is virtually nothing out there about the mental and emotional part of being injured and not being able to run. There should be. Because I think injured runners – or at least me – need information and help with it.
Here’s what I’m feeling – all rolled up in one big giant stress ball: ANGER. Sadness. Loneliness. Jealously. Frustration. Guilt (really? I’m whining about not running, when there are people who have serious problems?). Hopelessness. Loss. Did I mention ANGER?
For the very first time today I let myself consider the possibility that I might just need to find something else to replace running. I might just need to accept that I’m done. And I feel so sick inside about it. And then I feel sick inside for feeling that way – it’s just running, right? I should count my blessings and just move the fuck on, right? (Sorry Mom).