I’ve blogged recently about my Big Goal. And I’ve blogged about Saying It Out Loud and how motivating that was for me for Grandma’s half. But I haven’t really said my Big Goal out loud to anyone yet. Because it’s Big and I feel like people will just be negative about it and bring me down. And even though it’s Big and a stretch right now, in my heart – and my head, actually – I believe it’s achievable. Maybe not at Chicago. Maybe not at CIM. Maybe not at Boston. Maybe not even next year. But I’ll do it. I know I will.*
So, when Chicago training kicked off yesterday I posted my Big Goal on my mirror, as a way to motivate and encourage myself. And so far the only two people who have seen it are my kids. And both of them – even my 12 year old son who knows next to nothing about running – doubted me (until I almost started crying when they did, then they changed their tune – probably because they were worried I’d ground them if they continued the negativity). And I just know if I made my goal public now, even blog followers and runners would question me. So I was feeling bad about this. And then guess what I did? Drum roll . . .
Prize to the blog reader that said, “Why, I bet Cindi opened up her daily meditation book and it told her her answer” (God, am I becoming predictable or what?? And is it CRAZY that the book always gives me the answers? Or am I just looking for meaning in the entry no matter what it says?)
Photo to show you I’m not making this up again:
So there’s my answer. “Go back to your heart. It will always lead you home.”**
So, F what the nay-sayers say. Go with what my heart says (within reason of course, my goal isn’t a sub 3 hour marathon, that’s just frickin nuts). And I know in my heart that my Big Goal isn’t out of reach.
* But really, I do think it will happen soon. 🙂 I just do.
** I also TOTALLY needed this passage today for other life issues that I’m struggling with, but I’ll spare you the details. You’re welcome.