I know what you are thinking.
You are thinking: Cindi, it’s not New Year’s yet. Plus, I thought you didn’t do resolutions.
And you would be right, on both counts. It’s NOT New Year’s yet. And I DON’T do New Year’s resolutions.
But, I do do New Year Resolutions. And since today marks the first day of a new chapter in my life/my New Year, I’m making some resolutions. Some of you already know my situation, but for those of you who don’t, I’ll share: I’m going through a divorce and the husband officially moved out this weekend, thus the new chapter in my life starts now. (And, please, I’m not looking for sympathy, just looking to fill you in because these new life changes have a definite affect on my running/training – not sure whether it will ultimately be positive or negative. Stay tuned).
In any event, after spending yesterday feeling overwhelmed and sorry for myself, I decided that I needed to get a handle on things today. Starting with some resolutions.* So without further ado, my New Year Resolutions:
- It’s All About Me. That’s right. You read that right. This is the Year-Of-Cindi. I know what you are thinking: Jeez, how selfish. You should be thinking of your young kids and making it be all about them, not about you. And, on first glance, this DOES sound like a selfish resolution. And, make no mistake, my kids are the single most important thing to me, without question. But, after spending the last month feeling sick and stressed and unhealthy because of the life stress associated with my situation, I realized that if I don’t take care of myself, I won’t be in any condition (physically, mentally or emotionally) to take care of my kids. Thus, my number one resolution, It’s All About Me. I plan to take care of myself, physically, mentally and emotionally, as best as I can, so that I can be the best mom that I can be to my kids during what is a super tough time for them.
- It’s All About My Kids. See above. They really are number one, but now you know why they are number two on this list. Priorities have shifted now and they need me more than ever, so taking care of them and their needs (mostly emotional) is a top priority for me during this New Year.
- Try New Things. I’ve been in a rut for a long long time. I do what’s comfortable. What’s familiar. What’s not scary. What I know. What isn’t risky. This year I plan to get out of my comfort zone. What that means, I’m not exactly sure yet. But a couple things I have in mind, in terms of fitness, since this IS a running blog: take group classes (gasp! I’m serious. This is coming from the girl who does NOT do group classes); buy a bike in the spring and do a duathlon next year (I’ve been thinking that I need to expand my horizons, in case running isn’t always an option; I am NOT ready to expand my horizons into the pool/lake – that shit freaks me out). I’m also toying with the idea of trying something longer than a marathon, but not sure that will happen next year yet.
- Make new friends. I feel like a grade school kid writing that. But it IS something I want to do this New Year. I have a good group of friends from highschool (my Girls 10 group), but they are all so busy with their families and life that we really only get together every couple of months now (we used to do it every month) and none of them live very close to me. Since I started training with the running group this summer, I have really enjoyed getting to know them and bonding with people with similar interests. I also think that I want to join a book club (does that sound totally geeky??), because I love reading and think it might be a good way to meet people with similar interests. I don’t even know how to go about finding a book club though (and it has to be a book club where they drink wine or beer too. :-) I have standards.) Anyway, I know that if I am alone very much this year (during the weeks that I don’t have the kids with me), I will not do well. So, I want to make new friends and keep busy.
- Have a year of Peace, Love & Happiness. Enough said.
- Get crazy fast. And, since this IS a running blog and you are all probably bored to death with my life goals and wondering what my running goals are, I’ll just throw this out there. I want to run a 3:30 marathon. Yep, that would be 12 minutes off my current marathon PR. You heard it here first folks. I know I can do it. This is the year.
So, there you go. My New Year Resolutions. Wish me luck.
*Ok, I didn’t start with resolutions. I started with a big glass of Zinfandel.