Holy crap am I out of shape. I took 15 days COMPLETELY off of cardio because of a procedure I had done on my shin, which involved stitches. So today when the stitches were removed and I got the green light to slowly resume activity, I figured I’d do 45 minutes easy on the bike. Ummm, no. I almost died after 20 minutes and needed to stop. Uggggg.
- I’m on week number two of strengthening my glutes and core. That seems to be going well.
- I’m also on week number two of baking and eating endless Christmas cookies (which may also explain why I can barely do 20 minutes on the bike).
- I misread my return to running plan. It only has me doing 1.5 miles TOTAL the first week. Still, I can’t wait!
Things I’m Thankful For (in no particular order):
- Peanut Butter Balls
- Having a new doctor who not only took tons of time to listen to me, answer my questions, read through my notes and workout log, do x-rays AND do a complete exam, but who also gave me the green light to return to running! (I still have a couple weeks down time while I’m healing from a non-running related procedure I had done on my left leg).
- Those two beautiful kids (can I call my son a kid when he’s taller than me??) in the photo above.
- Loving and being loved by Scott.
- My work. I’ve been hearing so many people complain about their jobs lately. I love what I do and I love being my own boss.
- Fleece pajamas, comfy leopard print slippers and red wine (yes, these three things go together as one).
- Thanksgiving. Such a great holiday! Good food, family and no pressure/expectations for buying gifts, etc. Just hang out. Love it.
- Listening to Meg describe her running and skiing workouts. So glad she is motivated and enjoying being fit and healthy!
One thing I REALLY miss about running is that it cleared my head and put things in perspective. When life seemed to get complicated, I would run and things would suddenly be clear, simple and less complicated. Seriously. I miss that.
There are so many complicated questions floating around in my head lately. I wish I could run to sort through the answers.
I’m feeling angry again. I’ve put in enough rest time.
I’m Alive! I know my 5 readers have been worried. Sorry.
Random Thursday Thoughts:
- It’s been 138 days since I’ve run. Holy Crap that’s a long time. I’ve actually accepted it and am – for the most part – no longer crabby about it. I’ve accepted biking and water running as my new fitness activity. And I’m thankful for them. But I do them just for fitness. I don’t like them. At all. They don’t provide enjoyment like running did.
- 5 years ago I went in to have an ugly weird spot on my leg looked at by a skin specialist. They said it didn’t appear worrisome, but I could have it removed if I wanted. I chose not to because it would require 2 weeks off running. Fast forward 5 years. I just got it removed. So the good news is that when I can return to running, I will no longer have a big ugly spot on my left shin.
- Because of the removal of the ugly spot on my shin, I am now on day two of 14 days of ZERO activity. No biking. No water running. No walking. Keep leg elevated and let it heal. Uggggg. I am trying not to think of it as me getting fat and lazy, and instead I’m telling myself that I’m really really healing the stress fracture.
- Prior to getting the big ugly spot removed, my tibia was actually feeling really good. Knock on wood, but I think it feels fine. Like good enough to run.
- I am switching doctors. I decided that I wasn’t getting the answers and hand-holding that I need from my current doc. I am frustrated with developing a second stress fracture of the tibia while completely obeying doctor’s orders and resting and slowing adding activity – so I want an answer and the current doctor didn’t seem to want to do any digging to help me figure out the “why” behind this issue. So I’m seeing a new doctor on Monday. Fingers crossed for some answers.
- Took my 12th annual girls trip last week. We went to Ojai, California. There is NOTHING quite as good for the soul as drinking, eating, hiking, shopping and gossiping with the girls.
- Even with no running, life is good.
The results are in: I’m normal.
Calcium level: normal
Vitamin D level: normal
Bone Density: normal
So why did I get another stress fracture while recovering from a stress fracture??? So frustrating not to know what caused it, so that I can avoid getting another one!
Clinically, I feel really good. No pain at all while walking (normal daily activity, not power walking) or cross training (biking, pilates, water running). I’m still going to avoid “power walking” for another week or two, then phase that back in slowly. When I can do 60 minutes walking without any pain, I’ll call for another MRI.
Tick tock. Tick tock.
True confession: I started crying in the doctor’s office yesterday when she told me I had another – completely separate – stress fracture. Not just a single tear. Really crying.
Pretty embarrassing, when I think about it, to be 42 years old and crying in my doctor’s office because of something like a stress fracture. Even more so when I put it in perspective and think of my cousin – who is 42 years old with 3 kids – and who was just diagnosed with breast cancer and will be having a double mastectomy next week.
So in the spirit of moving forward with a positive attitude so that I can heal faster, here are some positive things I thought about today:
- As my doctor said, focus on the clinical aspect of my injury. Meaning, when she asked me how I actually feel, I said that “I feel pretty darn good. About 90% normal”. I can pretty much walk without pain (just random shooting pain that is only at about a level 1 and only happens a few times throughout the day). This is SO much different than when I got the first stress fracture and couldn’t navigate the stairs, couldn’t walk to the bathroom in the night without pain, couldn’t walk without limping, couldn’t wear cute heals, etc.
- I can cross train without pain. Thank goodness! If I had to be completely inactive it would be so much worse. While biking, water running and pilates don’t give me the same rush and stress relief that running does, at least it’s something. And it keeps me sane.
- This time off from running really is making me do things that I normally don’t do. And that’s a good thing. Like the volunteering that I’ve done this past week for 3 races. It HAS been fun. This morning, especially. I was in charge of a water stop at a local half marathon and I convinced my 14 year old son (a non-runner) to come with me. And we had fun. And, truthfully, if I was running I would not have done 2 of those 3 volunteer gigs.
- My blog has taken on a new life, gotten a new audience. Instead of people finding it from searches like “marathon race strategy” and “boston marathon qualifying”, they find it from searches like “recovering from stress fracture” and “return to running after stress fracture”
- At least this didn’t happen earlier in the year and prevent me from running Boston. Really, I’ve been lucky to be able to run 12 marathons in 5 years and not be injured until now.
Moving forward. With a smile on my face. (Sort of). Because there is more to be thankful for than not.